3 Months

I've been married about 3 months now. It doesn't really feel too different being married. We were already living together and acting like a married couple so nothing really changed. I guess the most change was in the way I felt. He was mine...forever now. He's my husband, I've made a commitment to him and only him. I just felt so.....so....oh i don't even know how to describe it, just pure happiness.

I wish that we had our own house though. Not that living with the rents is THAT terrible, I just want to be a grown up married woman with a house and a kitchen and pots and pans. It's so easy at the house now. We don't pay rent, we have our own little apartment type thing in the basement...kitchen, laundry room, extra bathroom. And my mom even makes dinner. I feel like such a bum though. It's good though cuz we're both going to school and trying to save up and pay bills while we're living rent free. James will graduate in May. Once he finds a well paying job that can support the both of us, I'm gonna quit and go to school full time. I want to get my CNA license and do that at the hospital. So that'll take about 5 weeks to complete and then when I start work again, I'll continue to do my pre reqs for nursing. I often daydream about my future life, not working at this lame job, going to school, James doing what he loves. I wish that it would happen already.

We got a puppy. He is just like Georgie only brown and black. Oh man he is SOOOO cute but he's a little shit. He bites like crazy, he shits all over the house and he has this awful screeching bark. I love him to death though. It's been kinda rough having to wake up every 2 hours in the night to take him out. It's like having a kid. I definitely think it's a good idea to start with a puppy before moving onto kids just to get used to it. He really is a good dog though. He's just a puppy doing puppy things. He's very cuddly and sweet. He's nicer when he's tired. He's funny. It was funny to see James in the beginning with him. He was carrying him around like a baby and going out of his way to do stuff for him. He's really cute with him. He's gonna be a good dad....but that's a whole other topic.

So yeah....that's life being married.

Being a Lopez

I know I know....I haven't posted in a long time. I'm just so lazy. I need to keep up with this. The whole point of my starting it was to note everything about our relationship.

So yeah....I love being married! I love James so much that sometimes it hurts. I have cried myself to sleep because I can't believe that I'm here. I can't believe he picked me! I am the luckiest girl in the world! I have a wonderful husband, I actually love my in laws, and I'm so happy with everything. I can't remember a time when I have been this happy.

I absolutely love his mom. She and I have a ton in common and I don't feel like I have to act differently than I normally am when I'm around her. We get a long so well and I'm so glad she's my 2nd mom. I love the whole family! The girls think I'm the shit. Bean always talks to me about her personal stuff that you don't tell just anyone. I feel like a big sister, and I've never had that before. Married life is wonderful!

I love James more than I can begin to express!!!